Jealousy

"jealousy |ˈjeləsē|noun ( pl. -ousies)the state or feeling of being jealous : a sharp pang of jealousy | resentments and jealousies festered.ORIGIN Middle English : from Old French gelosie, from gelos (seejealous )."In my opinion, it's one of the worst feelings in the world. But when you're the jealous type, there's not much you can do.Jealousy can cause someone to act as if they don't trust you, and it can make them seem obsessive.One minute you feel fine, you feel you can trust someone - yet anything that is said can completely change that; the other person is not even aware. Sometimes, you can't even say you feel this way for fear of someone taking it completely the wrong way, and keeping it all inside makes you feel worse and worse. It could be anything, fear of something being taken away from you, fear of not being 'the favourite', wanting something that you can't have.A lot of people don't seem to understand jealousy - most of the time it is caused by fear, insecurity and lack of confidence. It's hard to ignore, and you may not be able to completely get rid of it, but it is possible for it to fade. You've just got to trust and be happy with what you have.

Effort.

You put so much effort into something, like literally work your balls off; then someone makes a comment as if you didn't. It sucks, and it happens all the time.

People make comments about things that you can't do that much about; you can't help being too busy...

Why?

You know when someone mentions something to you about someone, like an annoying little habit?

And then it turns out, they do that but you didn't notice until someone pointed it out to you?

And then of course, you can never tolerate it again.

I hate that!

The truth is I just find it so hard to deal with some people... 

I look over my blog and I feel like such a negative person, sorry to anyone who reads it.

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I showed them all the wedding video; I was so nervous because I wanted them to like it!

They said they really liked it and Grampy was smiling. He looked so much more comfortable today, it was really nice - he's been moved out of intensive care and into a normal ward.


Oh, also, I had a dream last night that I won the lottery.
I've got lottery tickets and picked the numbers I can remember, wish me luck!

Byeeee

The Importance of Family

Good things and bad things happen in life; I hate to say it but life wouldn't exist without death.

Yesterday evening (18/03/11), I witnessed a beautiful wedding - My Grandad and Nan.
It was scheduled for the 9th of July, however ill health meant it had to be brought forward.
It took place in the hospital chapel and all the staff were brilliant. It was an amazing wedding and I am so glad that I could be there. Family and friends were there - Everyone made an appearance, just for them, even though they had only been told about it hours before. I filmed it and I wish to have finished the editing of the video by later today, so that I can show my Grandad in hospital.

Although the circumstances were sad, it brought the whole family together.

I hope that they like the video.

I need a break.
I keep having dreams where people are upset and crying.
Apparently this is meant to tell me that I am going to get unexpected calls for help from others?

Sorry this is a short, negative one :/

Byeeee

You know when you just sort of give up on something and try to forget about it, but it still bugs you a bit? 

Well imagine you'd been feeling like this for over a year, and then out of the blue that person apologises to you.

I didn't really know what to feel like to be honest... And yeah, I have to say got a bit emotional; a year is a while to wait.